Orphaned...

I wish this is the apt word to describe what I feel now, rather the state I have gotten myself into. There are times when you start off with your mind resisting all those persistent sweet nothings refusing to believe it is all love. Then there are those in between times when you have been given so much love, so much so that you cave-in to your hearts desires.

There is always the other situation, when all that one has given is love, so pure, so gentle, so tender from deepest of one’s heart. But then it was refused access every time it tried, every moment was a letdown and all that it felt was hurt. Then you go numb, you don’t feel the hurt anymore, mind persuades and consoles. There are better things life has in store.

What if this was a simultaneous process? One with all the love, the other always denying it.Then the other with all the love and the other one too numb? People need love, don’t they? What do they do?

Often always life moves on. Sometimes in love letting go of the other is the best thing to do. Clinging on can only worsen things, bad emotions! You are the one who taught me that isn’t it. My love for you is probably on the epitome. You are all that I see, all that I feel and all that I remember. I am willing to do all those things that you thought i wouldn’t do to have you.

Dumped ! This is what I have been trying to describe in all these words. My overwhelming emotions wouldn’t let me use the word.You have essentially become my life now! I promise I will not cling on to you now. I will not hinder all the love that you deserve to have. I understand there is no second place when it comes to love.

You leave me orphaned; leave me in a pain, called love!